In Dreams
Looking back, I had no way of knowing the duplex on Michelle
Drive my mother found for us would be my home for the next 7 years, the
longest period of time we'd stayed at any address. This period in my life
would far surpass the others in the changes that overtook me, the growth
I experienced, the freedom I gained and the innocence I lost.
At 13, all I saw were steps backwards and the life I'd
hoped for reduced to a fantasy of what might have been. Adding to my distress
was the embarrassment of being transferred from a Junior High to a K through
8, from an almost freshman to an overage gradeschooler. I was conscious
of growing older, and like most kids at that age I wanted to be considered
at the very least an adult in the making.
So here I was, sharing once again a room with Bob and
a school with babies learning the alphabet. I was so offended by our new
home that I refused to drink the tap water, as if the same water mains that
fed North Highlands were contaminated once they branched off to Arden Arcade,
our new neighborhood.